Love

A word "family"

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While my account lecture was teaching, suddenly I felt want to go back Tawau and celebrate Chinese New year with them because they are my family. So, whatever they have a far distance with me but I am still missing them. Then, I tried to checked MAS Airline and Airasia Airline but the ticket was so expensive around RM1xxx. After that, I called to my parents and told them that I want to go back and celebrate together. They asked me don't go back because is very expensive. Meanwhile, mom said as I like is i want to go back . I continue next process to buy ticket in this moment luckily I ask my chef MR. Kelvin Chai, He give me advance to buy more early few days and follow him to check . What I glad was really more cheaper than the date that I found. I finally bought the ticket but felt sad because wasted their money so much in ticket. I always love them.
Later, I take the chicken come out from the refrigerator and decided to steam it . What I expect is very delicious but I felt disappointed to myself because the taste is not good enough. Promise put more effort in next time. Another day for workout, but reduce the time to do because of the time is so rushing I thank just done around 20 mins only. For me, better than nothing . I asked him what I have changed and he told me I fat a lot . SHIT =.= 

Love

A relationship

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What I want a relationship is very simple. First of most, I have no way to accept third-person in our relationship. Secondly, don't try to think who is the winner and loser, just be yourself if can.
Today, after I ended my class, enthusiasm to meet my bii bii. I was glad to saw him when he is walking to me. I just hope we can have a happy way while every time we are going back to home but.. I think everything has predestined to let me take a lesson. While we withdraw money from ATM what I was say in suddenly is : Baby, you are annoying. I was shock why I will said that ? What I always hope not just wanna him to talk to me more and more and tell me everything? I felt sorry to him that I spoke out that kind of thing. I just want we always stay sweet and happy without any quarrel between me and him. On the way, we have so quite and he did't try to turn back and have a look to me. I just act nothing on the way but seriously I dislike the feeling like given abundance.

I always love him. He is my only one.

Arrive home, I try to make him happy but unsuccessful. I have no idea to argue or quarrel because I hate quarrel especially I was very angry until the max. Even though I angry, will just quarrel with my tears. I am a hyper-emotional, always have mix feeling and what I done and spoke is always touching myself only. My bii bii is very understand me, he know I am not kind of girl so fierce he just forgave me and ask me don simple get angry easily. I smile with him and show my understanding.
Yes,although today happened something but I do not quit my fitness. 
I take low oily Misua as my breakfast and lunch

Workout

Workout Day 1

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Workout ? I can't believe that I enjoy workout today. I want be more responsible to my own body. Be more perfect. Fitness doesn't mean on diet. Diet means you need take a balance meal there are contain Vitamin A,B,C,D, and E and also Protein and Carbohydrate. So, where we can get it ? I am not clear about where can get them from but normally I will take more fruit and vegetable in my daily meal. How was my drink ? I always drink low fat milk and drink a cup of tea . I more prefer with hot tea without ice cube.

I am a girl that very like to eat. How I control is I eat less in my every meal but kept took my meal in anytime. Impossible I won't touch the snack and junk food especially chocolate and my favorite Matcha food. We can eat but cannot eat too much have a limit to our self. Snack, sweet and junk food prevent energy to make you more concentrate while doing revision. Now, will force myself to workout because want to clean all the oily food inside my gastric. Today, is the first day that I started workout and just done in 20 min but hope I have to continue in tomorrow and extra more 10 min. Enjoy my lifestyle. Keep it on.


   I hope I won't try to Quit      workout. 

Love

Appreciate

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We must know appreciate who treat you as well because no one have the responsibility to take care of you, support you when you needed, console you while you feel sad, and be your foothold in anytime. First of all, we MUST remember to love and appreciate you parents. Before that, I kept ignore them everyday and just take their good as usual. After I graduate my secondary life school I make a decision and ask them to send me to KL and continues study. They did't say anything even a word. They felt unhappy and worries while they send to our local airport.

After I arrive, just like came a new environment. I have no idea with how to take care myself, manage my money, manage my time. even my transport problem. Cause I am "Mummy Daddy's girl". They always give what I want and never ever to reject me.

Although it seem like hardship but I cannot make any complaint because is I make this decision I should be responsible to myself. I determine to change my lifestyle. How? I learn try to find transport to back home whatever is a night time or day time. I am a tongue-tie in English and my University college is belongs to International so I try to speak and without shy if incorrect. I learned how to clean up my bedroom and make tidy .

Today, my dad suddenly called me and told me that he already bank in the living expenses and ask me to check. After checked, I felt shock to myself and just realize that I use so much. Then, I Whatapps to my dad and told him my living expenses is so high. Why I shocked is because I have experience to do part time one day maybe around RM80-90++ . So how about RM1200 per month need to work 12 days with 288 hours. After that, I tell myself should grow up to learn how to manage money and take good care of myself. I determine to study hard even though I was a stupid girl but try and put effort to get a good result for them. I don want to make them feel sad and disappointed anymore.

I love my family .

Dream

Dream

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I hope can be a model . Since I was child I have a dream to become a model. Almost of people around of me told me that I can't do it . Why I cannot make it true?
Some of them let me know model need a 


 Victoria Beckham. She is my role model .

mission

Mission of 2016

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In a new year we should have some mission to done and improve myself.

Love

Lesson

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What lesson that I gain in today is everything can't just look surface and must look deep of the case.
I am an overthinking person so I think why I was typing blog on midnight . I am also a girl that easy get jealous from someone . This is my type since from chil until now is never change but this make me lost a lot of thing . I think everyone have your own strength and weakness but some of them just look your weakness and won't look more your strength . What is money ? I think everyone knew it . Money can buy everything that you want but which is more important if you compare money , family and your lover ? First of almost , family is the most important that I no need mention . Family is won't betray you and forever be your foothold to protect and even support you . Then how about money and lover ? This is depends how your lover are . Just take my bii bii as an example . He live in medium class level but he was a good bf . If you ask me how good he was that I cannot answer because love is can't calculate . No one is the winner and loser in this relationship . Love not a game it can't compare but is a magic to make us be happy . I was easy to get angry but my bii bii did't scold me instantly he want me spoke out what happen and explain to me with solve it . At last , I understand . I hope you can see more my strength .
Okay . Now is 3.10 am and I was insomnia.
I hope after finish type this post I can sleep well . Good night .

Mood

Complicated feeling

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What I am feeling with complicated ?